Original Story

A Lighthouse on the Hill [Part 1]

September 15, 2025

Painted by me

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A Lighthouse on the Hill


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September 2017 The sun was about to set and leaving trails of orange hue in the indigo sky. The only audible sound was the sea waves and some seagulls flying in circles. Tranquility wrapped the evening just like any other day.


Eventhough nothing extraordinary had ever happened on the shore, that man dutifully ignited the light that aimed to the horizon. In case, a certain ship was sailing toward the reefs.

After doing his usual evening task, he was hurriedly walking down the stairs because he just remembered the fence was still open. He worried that the lambs were going to escape the fence. Since losing his wife, he tried to farm and look after some livestocks. He bought two lambs from the trade. His old golden retriever was not trained to help him watching the lambs, so he doubted the lambs were still in the yard. He had to check his livestocks.

The golden retriever barked in joyful demeanor when he opened the backyard door. That man scratching the back of its ears and smiling. He was relieved because the lambs were still there grazing in his own yard. These days, he seemed to be forgetful. Was aging the reason he became forgetful? Or was it the loneliness and his isolated life that made him forget several things?

He lost in his thoughts while walking pass the yard. He stopped at the fence and immediately closed the woody fence. His movement slowed down when he caught an odd object laying on the beach. Maybe that was just a tree trunk floating until the shore. He squinted to make sure that object was not what he was thinking. However, that object slowly looked like a human body stranded on the sand beach.

Oh God.

He opened the fence again and ran down the hill. He tried to keep watching his steps because the path down there was steep. He almost slipped when he reached the shore.

He walked fast through the sand beach. This part of the shore was protected by the reefs. However villagers rarely went there because the beach was also protected by some rocky hills. It was pretty isolated and that was the reason that the beach felt like a hidden gem no one knew. He gasped when he saw that the human body was laying on the sand. Never had in his life seen a stranded human body on the beach. What if that was a corpse instead of living human? Nobody would survive in the cold ocean. But he didn’t see any sign of rotten flesh or putrid smell.

Slowly that man got closer to the … boy. That odd object was a male teenager. His skin was pale white. He wore a white loose shirt and dark slacks. His feet were bare. His button shirt was loose and showing some skin. He seemed to eat less for days his ribs were protruding. Blood was stained on his temple. He probably stumbled upon a coral while drowning. He was lucky that the wound was not severe.

There was no movement from his chest that indicated he was breathing air. Nobody would have found this boy if he left the shore right now. He doubted this boy was alive considering the boy’s not moving and knew it would be a foolish decision to wake up a dead body. But then, he crouched and touched the boy’s shoulder.

The man was taken aback when the boy was jarred and breathing air deeply like he was inhaling air for the first time. The boy opened his eyes and his eyes were so strange. One eye was normal with bright blue iris. One eye was fully black as vanta black colour. No light could reflected on his black eye. Only darkness. It was the first time for the man to see a black sclera like that. He watched the boy sat down and touched his bleeding temple. He winced and looked innocently perplexed. His body was soaked. His buzz cut hair was damp.

The man tried to ignore the eeriness of this boy’s eye. He was merely a young man. He needed to help him. He must call the police after this.

“What's your name, kid?” inquired the man in a polite tone.

“My name is Reef,” answered the latter which made the man think this boy was joking.

“I mean your real name. Maybe your head was hit too hard—”

“Reef. You can call me Reef. Does my name bother you?” he said in defense.

The man blinked. “No. It was just not a common name. Can you stand up, Reef? Let me help you clean your wound, but my house is up on the hill.” He still was not sure to call him like the coral rock beneath the ocean.

“What should I call you, sir?” asked Reef before trying to get up while staring at the man warily. His normal eye was allusive while his strange eye was grim.

“You can call me Arthur.”

Reef was able to stand up even with a grimaced face because his head was dizzy. If Arthur didn’t prop him, he would be falling. Then, he walked side by side with Arthur toward the hill. He stared back at the ocean in a vigilant way—like something would chase him and tear him apart.

He walked down the path beneath him and carefully stepped on the path upward the hill. The path appeared like stairs. He tried to keep his balance, while Arthur kept an eye on him.

“Where am I?” asked Reef while climbing the stairs.

“You don’t know?” The man was so awkward.

“How can I know? It’s my first time reaching the surface safely,” answered Reef in sarcasm.

This kid is sassy, thought Arthur. Maybe I should have left him on the shore. And what does he mean by reaching the surface? He looked behind to find out the kid kept staring back at the ocean like watching or waiting for something. Fear was depicted on the kid’s face. Arthur tried to ignore Reef's uncanny way and push his thoughts forward about Reef’s origin. He didn’t even know why but he was curious how Reef ended on the shore.

“You are in Cornwall,” answered Arthur eventually. They already reached the yard. He opened the fence. Copper was running toward them with tongue sticking out.

Reef startled at the dog. He looked like he had never seen a dog before. Arthur’s house was exactly behind a lighthouse that confronted the ocean. The house was two stories high made of grey stones, with square windows on the facade. Ivies grew on the wall. Flower pots were arranged around the door. It was so aesthetically pleasing. Reef stood still in front of the building until Arthur beckoned him to get inside.

Reef’s blue eye looked around the interior of Arthur’s house. It was warm and homely even though some furniture seemed worn out. There were two old sofas that faced a hearth. A picture of a couple stood on the desk beside the sofa—Arthur with his deceased wife. He looked to another room where Arthur was looking for first aid kit. It was a dining room.

Arthur grabbed the first aid kit from a storage cabinet. He immediately gave a sign for Reef to get closer and sat on the stool. “Where do ya come from, kid?” He started to clean Reef’s wounds with gauze and antiseptics.

Reef hesitated before answering, “The North Sea.” He didn’t wince at all when Arthur cleaned his wound.

Arthur stopped his movement. “Are you serious? I heard that concussion can cause short term memory loss indeed.” But there were no lie showing in Reef’s eye. Reef’s stare was so genuine. But Arthur didn’t let his guard down. “Don’t lie, kid. Stop the nonsense.”

“My origin is from beneath the stormy ocean where no one could reach the seabed,” said Reef solemnly. His face slowly became grim and somber. He wasn’t ready to explain his former home. His right eye was no use on the surface. He couldn’t see with his right eye.

Endless questions popped out in Arthur’s mind. It didn’t make sense. But looking at this boy’s soaked body and he could see him trembling a little made him postpone all the queries inside his head. He had no idea what creature he brought home.

Arthur smiled incredulously. “Well alright kid. I’ll ask more later. Clean up and change your clothes first.”


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Reef got into the bathroom. He slowly let panic consume him. His right eye was dull. His magic was gone completely after reaching the surface. He stared at the tub in the bathroom and filled it with water. After the water almost overflowed, he got into the tub and drowned himself. He let the water completely soaked him and tried to breath under the water but it only ached his lungs. He couldn’t breathe. His respiratory organ were burning under the water.


He rose immediately and coughed the water from his mouth. Slowly he touched the supposed gills that hidden behind his ear. It left only scars. The gills were no part of him anymore.

The sea creature’s ability had disappeared completely and he was severely aghast. It reminded him so much of the wandering journey when he was stranded in the middle of desert. But, at that time he could still see using his black eye.

Slowly he touched his black eye where there was no white nor pupil. He remembered clearly years ago when Father took his human eye and replaced it with the vanta black eye so that he could see clearly underwater. And right now this eye was nothing.

He realized. He was already a human. Merely a human who couldn’t breathe underwater. Eventually he reached the surface altogether. He achieved his dream. But something ached his long-dead-heart.

Something lost and crumbled inside him.


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Arthur knocked the door. Worry if the kid was unconscious in the bathroom or slipped. “Kid?” One hour had already passed. He had already put dry towel and clothes for him inside. He even made some warm meal for their dinner.

Slowly Reef opened the bathroom’s door. He wore a worn-out black shirt and shorts that fit him. He didn’t realize time pass by when he sat in the bath tub and thinking all of his life decisions. “Sorry sir, I made you wait.”

“Yeah nevermind. Come, eat with me.”

The dining room was brimming with the smell of beacon, fried egg, roasted asparagus, and garlic bread. Arthur cooked well even since before his wife gone. Then, Reef sat in front of him and tried the homemade meal that Arthur had prepared. He was reluctant at first but then he ate like he had not eaten for days. The food was delicious.

Arthur wanted to ask one or two things after having the dinner, but looking at Reef eating his cooked meal heartily made his heart feeling warmer. It’s been so long since there was anyone inside that lonely house on the hill.

“Did you say you wanna ask me something?” said Reef after he finishing his evening meal. He felt nourished and better now. His head was not throbbing in pain anymore.

Arthur took a deep breath. He didn’t know what thing he should ask first. He wanted to confirm was he a human but ... looking at his lively blue eye and how he devoured the dinner, this boy was so human. “Tomorrow. I have to sleep early because I have to get up early and work in the morning.”

“Oh seriously? Did you wonder if I am really a human?”

Oh this kid is back with his sass after being full stomach. “I am sure you are a completely human after looking at how you eating. But, something kinda bother me. Your right eye. Can you see with it?”

“Not anymore.”

“Did you fall from a certain vessel?”

“I did, when I was infant.” Reef still looked straight into Arthur’s eyes that only meant he wasn’t lying.

“What?” Arthur stared at Reef incredulously. But right he was just trying to believe anything Reef said. “Do you have any family that maybe I can connect?”

“No, please don’t. They already cut the bonds with me.”

A runaway teenager?

“And I already forget my human’s family … Actually, I have no memories to my biological parents.”

“Kid, I’ll come to the police station tomorrow morning.”

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That night, Reef slept on the couch right in front of the hearth. It was a cold night in autumn season. He sat on the couch that supposedly only for one seat. He straightened his long feet to a footrest. He pulled a blanket until his chin. It was not the comfiest position to rest but Arthur only had one bedroom. The other room in the house was already became a storage room.

The house was quite and serene at night. He could only hear the ticking clock on the wall and the faint sound of sea waves.

Reef looked at the fireplace and his mind was swirling with many thoughts.

First, Arthur still didn’t believe him about his origin. Perhaps, his origin story didn’t make sense at all to any human on the surface. Well, his experience meeting human was so little. He only ever met humans in that journey where his soul was wandering. He often questioned whether that event was real or just part of his insane dream.

Second, where should he go after this? How do people live on the surface? He had some theory of being human … but he didn’t know what he should do first.

Slowly he was dozing off. He was exhausted after getting trapped in the current underwater that made him stranded on this place.

The last thing that appeared on his mind was … how he could meet that girl again?

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In the morning, Arthur woke him up and told him to get ready for going to the police station. After eating breakfast, Arthur gave him an eye patch to cover his black eye. “People might be scared of your dark eye,” murmured Arthur while giving it to Reef.

They went out by walking to the small town nearby the lighthouse. The sun was already bright up there.

“Are you going to dump me there?” asked Reef nonchalantly.

Arthur who walked in front of him was silent for a while. “Let’s see if they have any information about a missing person.”

Reef sighed. There would not be any missing news, except perhaps if Father was announced that news under the ocean. Slowly, he looked back to the sea again with vigilance.

They walked past the side streets and stalls. So many people greeted Arthur while he walked by the stalls. Some of them looked at Reef with curious and suspicious eyes.

When they arrived at the police station, Arthur immediately asked for any missing person news in case Reef was on the poster of missing person. However, there was not even any news of a missing person in that small town.

“What’s your family name?” asked the officer.

Reef startled. Common sea creatures never had a family name. But father ever told him to use his name as a legacy. You are Reef Oceanos, his father’s voice echoed in his memories. “Oceanos,” said Reef. “Reef Oceanos.”

Arthur frowned at Reef’s uncommon surname. This kid’s name sounds like a fictional name. Is he saying the truth?

The police officer nonchalantly typed something on the computer. “Well, nothing comes out. His family name is not in our data bank.”

Reef’s stare only meant see-I-am-not-lying. Arthur who sat beside him was tapping the officer’s desk and thinking so hard.

After several minutes, he declared, “Thank you. I think I am going home with this kid.”

“Have a nice day,” said the officer.

Reef blinked in disbelief. In his head, he was already scheming to survive in the surface world. He was ready to get dumped once again.


Even though he was clueless about the surface world, he was confident about surviving. He used to roam under the harsh condition of the seabed. The surface world might be far easier. And here, the real sun shone every day.


Reef held his smile. He didn't want to lookexuberant with this news.

At least, he had a place for a while until he was done analyzing the surface world and being able to survive alone.



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TO BE CONTINUED
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My Stories

A Time to Reflect

Agustus 24, 2025


Hello anyone, I am writing this draft while waiting for my next flight to Surabaya. Usually, Makassar becomes my landing destination to go home but right now it is being my transit spot. Anyway, I just had three weeks holiday in Kendari and it was my first time going to Kendari. <3

 

Okay, I’ll tell you stories about my journey and this stories will be divided into three parts. Let’s begin.

 

Part 1. From Banjarbaru to Kendari

Saturday, July 26th 2025

It was early in the morning and I already went to the airport. Finally, I was leaving Banjarbaru. It had always been my wish to leave Kalimantan island. I really wished to move to somewhere closer to my family since the beginning of the year. I manifested it through putting it down on my 2025 board vision. I was kinda delusional in January though.

 

I had lived in Kalimantan for three years and I thought that was so long and it was time to leave. Maybe it was the effect of my nomaden childhood that makes me always wanted to move if I already stayed in one place for so long.

 

And … I am so thankful to receive this opportunity to leave Kalimantan even though the new place that I am going to come has never been in my plan.

 

In the airport, my plane got delayed as always. But I was accompanied by my friends. They were my first friends in South Kalimantan and we went through a lot of things together. We shared good and bad memories. We shared experiences of first time being employed in a new place that we had never been before. I am so grateful to meet and know them. Thank you so much for the memories and the farewell gifts. I truly appreciate it and I will cherish it!

 

Around 10 a.m. I flew to Surabaya for transit. Huft. My journey was still so long. Surabaya was always being my transit spot (before direct flight to UPG from BDJ existed) and usually I bought some books in periplus here. But that time I didn’t buy any book because first my bag was so heavy, second I was going to live in Jawa again, third my wishlist book wasn’t there.

 

I was moving without adding more baggage. I only used the 10 kg free baggage space because I didn’t want to pay more. The ticket is already expensive. I can’t understand why lion air only gives the passenger 10 kg baggage space? Indonesia is a big country (someone said that). But why the only affordable plane ticket to go to the East is only lion air? Who made this regulation? Once again, I am just a WNI.

 

I waited in Juanda Airport and of course the plane got delayed. At 1 p.m., I flew to Makassar for second transit. I also got delayed. At 6 p.m., finally I could fly to Kendari. Anyway, it was my first time didn’t cry while flying from Makassar.  I am such a crybaby actually. I just want to stay closer to my mom and my grand family. And another sad truth is … it’s been 11 years since the last time I lived with my mom.

 

In 2016, 2017, 2022, 2023, 2024, and recently in April 2025, I always cry in the airplane while going away from this island. That hollow feeling everytime I had to leave Makassar, was kind of depressing hahahaha.


I know sometimes life could be so weird. Actually, I only visit Makassar and Parepare for holiday but my stay here is always longer than three weeks. During high school, I always had a one-month holiday and I always go home here. So uhm honestly I hadn’t ever lived in Makassar. I didn’t even spend my high school here (I spend my teenage years in Purwokerto #ngapakpride).


I was just manifesting to live in Makassar because words are pray. And I feel so homey when I am in Parepare.

 

Life is so strange. I was not born in Sulawesi island but why do I feel so home here?

 

At 7 p.m., I landed for the first time in Haluoleo Airport. My first impression toward Kendari, it was a very smoll town. The airport was like a regency airport. The town was not really crowded. I had never been going to Kendari before but I already called this town as home.

 

Another fun fact, all of my siblings had already been to Kendari and my grand family (grandparents, mommy, and her siblings) used to live in this province too but not in Kendari. I really want to go the place where my mom spent her teenagehood but yesterday my stay in Kendari was too short. :(

 

Once again, I found a new home.

 

*p.s. I continue writing this after I arrived in Malang.

 

Part 2. Slow Living

July 26th-August 16th 2025

While I was staying in Kendari, I spent my time with my mom; cooking, baking, crocheting, gardening, watching movies, reading books, and attending kajian sunnah. There was no schedule and for a moment I could slow down. I didn’t have to hurry for anything and it was really nice. I could take time to fully learn how to crochet and even bake cakes. I played with the cats who came into the house just for foods. I went to the mall with my mom and ate in a restaurant (that later we tried to recook at home).

 

I was so happy to be at home with mom because all these past 11 years I couldn’t spend much times with my mom. I only spent time with her only during holiday. During my stay, we made a lot of cakes and tried many new recipes. 


Just like the old days. Even though life is agony, life can give us sweet bites. I think that’s just the way the world works.

 

Besides enjoying my holiday at home, I also explored a new place that I hadn’t been before. It was the Moramo Waterfall. OHHHHH, the waterfall and the forest surround it were awesome. Truly the real rain forest! The waterfall was refreshing and beautiful. It was also quite because I went there in weekday.

 

I also went to some kind of place to picnic with mommy’s friends. In this some picnic place, I tried archery for the first time and horse-riding (that was failed because I was a scaredy cat).


Then, I met my mom’s friends there. They were so kind, sweet, and fun. Even one of her friend gave my mom a persian kitten two days before my flight to Surabaya.

 

I wish I could stay in Kendari. I would be very grateful if I could work there.

 

Part 3. Malang Chapter 2

Saturday, August 16th 2025

Okay. This was the bittersweet part. As I said before, I never liked the part when the plane took me away from Sulawesi. (TMI, the plane that day was so on time. The ticket said boarding at 7 am and it flew exactly at 7 am. What a rare moment for lion air). I wanted to be near my family. But, how could I waste an opportunity to get education?

 

And anyway, this is Malang Chapter 2. Why? Long-short story my family had ever lived here before for nine months from September 2013 to July 2014.

 

Once again, life is weird. My 14 years old self would never expect I am going back here after 11 years. When I left Malang that time, my younger self had a feeling I wouldn’t go back like … I knew it was the last time I could gather with my core family.  

 

But here I am. Going back. Alone hehehe.

 

Anyway, several pieces of 2014 were kind of saddening that I lost some of my memories.  :D

 

This town held some of memories that I already forget. However, as I already stay here for a week, the roads seem familiar and I get déjà vu? Did I ever pass this road before? The smell is so close to home that I kinda forget? (For me, every town has different smell and I’d rather remember places by their smell. An article stated that scent is the only sense that was brought to the emotion and memories sensory function in brain. In another word, scent could evoke memories. Hope this legit.)

 

Uh, it is normal, right?

 

Humans tend to forget their happy moments and torment theirselves with bad memories. Humans are weird creatures. My brain juice couldn’t comprehend it any other time.

 

Actually, going back to the town I’ve been before is not a new thing for me. Since elementary school, I had been through some thing like this. I started SD in Bekasi, moving place to place, then went back to Bekasi again before SD graduation. Then, I used to live in Bintaro during SD and somehow I went to college in Bintaro. I used to go to SMP in Malang and now somehow I went to college (again) in Malang.

 

Well, maybe that is just human’s life way. Bizarre. To be honest, I don’t know what to reflect. I am 25 years old … somehow I had been living in so many places with different culture and people only in one country (wish I could go outside this country with my family someday). I think … that is just the effect of living in archipelagos country.

 

As I grow older, I have a wish to settle down in a town which is closer to my family, just like any other people. And I wish there would be someone who would accept me even though I am my life is a little bit weird.

 

The conclusion is: I am so thanful for these past two months. I could go to Kendari. And … I start studying in Malang again. Thank you for anyone who stumbled upon my blog and read my yapping.

 

X

 

Nanda

 

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p.s. Frequently asked questions:

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About Me

25 Reflection Things at 25

Juli 13, 2025


Photography by me

𝟐𝟓 𝐑𝐞𝐟𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐚𝐭 𝟐𝟓

Nobody asked me about 25 things that I’ve learned in my life as I turn quarter century old (please do not ask me).


Well, I still want to write about short list of 25 lessons on turning 25 a.k.a. 25 reflection things. 


So, here goes my list (this list is so personal—the word 'you' here is myself. This list is like a note for  myself :D).


  1. Never easily trust people because their words can’t be trusted or they could be lying to you.
  2. Never depend on people around you because they will leave you or you will leave them at certain point.
  3. Do not put too much hopes on people or just do not expect people to go along your way because they will probably disappoint you.
  4. Go outside sometimes, touch some grass, it’s good.
  5. Socialize with humans sometimes so you could reconnect to humanity.
  6. Read those books and articles, use your brain (sometimes I am still trapped in reading slump).
  7. Not everything goes as you want, but keep trying until you reach your goal.
  8. It’s okay for being mediocre and struggling at your hobbies. 
  9. Sometimes you have no idea what you really want, but that is alright because your life journey is already written on lauhul mahfudz.
  10. Go with the flow.
  11. Do not waste your time (but I still often do this).
  12. Be kind to people because people face their own battle and trauma everyday.
  13. You’re just a side character in other people’s life, so just chill man.
  14. Being unwanted, unlikeable, and left out are totally okay, keep JOMO (joy of missing out things).
  15. Do not be annoying.
  16. Be invisible as you can be.
  17. Live your life to the fullest sometimes—enjoy these youthful moments that makes you think life is not really that bad.
  18. Sadness wave will subside eventually and in the end of the day you will find a new hyperfixation to bury your sadness. 
  19. Stay delusional (imagine things that make you happy) if you’re depressed.
  20. Think before talk.
  21. Do not hurt people with your tongue.
  22. Forgive people around you, they might go through something or have a bad day. 
  23. Forget people’s mistake.  
  24. Remember your mistake so you won’t re do it.
  25. Do not panic and be calm even if you want to burn the world. 

Okay, I think that’s my personal 25 reflection things as I turn ¼ century recently. Thank you for anyone who accidentally reads it (I  am talking to the wall). I hope you have a great day. 

My Stories

Under the Milky-Way Galaxy

Juni 28, 2025

Photo source because my phone could not capture the nightsky

Last night was my fifth times and my last time camping in Borneo. I got to see the stars and the milky-way galaxy. The sky was tremendously magnificent. Alhamdulillah, my wish to do stargazing was answered by God.

While I was laying on the ground and looking at the sky, I only could think that these stars emerged their lights from thousand years ago. Yet I could witness their lights clearly last night. I could see their blue, white, and red glows. I was thinking that milky-way galaxy was just only one of 2 trillions galaxies in the observable universe. 

I wondered which part of the nebula clouds that I saw last night. Was that orion spur? Was that perseus arm? Was that scutum-centaurus arm? I hadn’t known the answer so I kept my questions in my head. (p.s. After searching for a while, I assumed the part was scutum-centaurus arm because I could see the centaurus constellation.)

Meanwhile this was the sky photo that I took with my Samsung A06 well nothing could be captured

And this was taken with my Vivo V25, nothing also could be captured 

Sometimes I wondered, if the stars emerged their gleams from thousand years ago, did that mean the star was living in the 1025 CE (Common Era)? Or … did the star also had the year of 2025 and distances meant nothing toward the time? But, if there was a star that emerged light from 13 billion years ago, did that mean the universe was still formed right now? 


Perhaps every galaxy—every star that hosts planets—had different time system. Time was fluid. Time was relative. And we—tiny humans on earth—tried to keep up with time and always assumed we were running out of time. Actually, what were we chasing in life? Why did we always race with time?


The stars that formed the constellations, they kept shining even though it took years to reach humans' sight on earth. They kept emerging their lights without expecting somebody would realize their existences. Maybe only the brightest and the loudest stars that could be seen and heard from the earth. But, how about the stars that roaming alone on expanding space? As bright as they could be, their brightness were silenced by the vacuum state of space. 


Where were they going? Why the space kept expanding?


Pardon me, I kept throwing questions like a five years old. These questions often came up in my brain and I tended to note down my questions because sometimes the answer could come in unexpected way. But, it was not only about questions.


I was grateful. While I was staying in this great island, I could explore so many places and had a lot of new experiences. While I lived in South Kalimantan, I ever went camping in Pulau Pinus Aranio, Lembah Bajuin, Loksado, Bukit Batu, and the last was Tahura. I never expected that I could enjoy camping in my 20s. Every moments were memorable and I would cherish it. ⋆


Anyway, last night was my first time observing the milky-way galaxy until past midnight. Even though I had seen a pool of stars before, I never realized the milky-way galaxy shape .... It looked like clouds and I just realized that the elongated clouds were actually a spiral arm of the milky-way galaxy. I also saw so many shooting stars. It made me thankful for the atmosphere layer which protected the creatures inside earth from the falling meteoroids.


I spent the night with friends that I met here. They were talking about everything and I was just listening. The night was tranquil because there were no loud music—only the vague singing from the other camping occupants. There were no rain and no cumulonimbus clouds last night. I was so thankful and grateful … for the crystal clear night sky, for the chance to do grounding, for the wind that blew softly, for the time to socialize with people, for the silly jokes that made me laugh, for the shared foods, for the inspiration to paint and write something, for the unforgettable memories that I would carry in my life.


Thank you.

28 June 2025

Original Story

Constellations ─ Late Night Rendezvous

Mei 20, 2025

 

Chapter 1
Late Night Rendesvouz

This is a slice-of-life story about four teenagers in a small seaside town who aligned at one time and dispersed into remnants of memories. 

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September 2017

Malam telah larut. Bintang gemintang menghiasi angkasa. Jalan raya tampak sepi. Hanya sesekali truk antar provinsi melewati jalur dengan roda besar yang menggetarkan aspal. Lampu berwarna kuning temaram menjadi sumber penerangan selain sinar perak rembulan yang menggantung di langit.

Aroma laut yang asin terbawa angin dan menggelayut di udara. Suara ombak terdengar dari lokasi bangunan tua terbengkalai yang menjadi tempat pertemuan rahasia mereka malam itu—bersamaan dengan suara cat pilox yang disemprot ke tembok untuk merangkai grafiti. Bau cat pilox yang menguar di udara bercampur dengan aroma asin lautan.

“Owen, berhenti. Aku mendengar sesuatu.”

“Polisi?” tanya Owen cuek tanpa menghentikan gerakan tangannya yang sibuk mencoret dinding dengan cat pilox. Hanya di malam hari ia bisa melampiaskan hobinya yang terpendam. Di siang hari, ia hanya mampu mencoret kertas dengan spidol posca.

“Bukan.” Ia bisa yakin itu bukan polisi karena  tidak melihat tanda-tanda mobil patroli. “Bentar biar aku cek.” Perempuan dengan rambut biru itu melesat ke balik gedung terbengkalai, mendeteksi arah sumber suara langkah kaki yang mendekat, dan menatap ke kegelapan malam. Ia mendengar suara langkah kaki tapi tidak dengan bayang-bayang. Atau dia salah dengar? Tempat itu terlalu gelap ….

Ia hampir terkena serangan jantung ketika kedua bahunya dipegang oleh seseorang dari belakang.

“Apa yang kamu lakukan di sini?”

Xeva berbalik dan menghela napas ketika melihat sosok di hadapannya. Sosok itu mengenakan hoodie berwarna gelap, topi, dan masker berwarna senada. Mereka teman sekelas.

“Kalian pergi terlalu lama sampai kukira kalian pulang duluan,” gerutu Xeva sambil bersedekap—berusaha menyembunyikan keterkejutannya.

“Pesanannya Owen banyak.” Zahira menunjuk sekantong tote bag minimarket yang berisi pesanan mereka. Tote bag berisi makanan dan minuman itu dibawa oleh pemuda tinggi menjulang di sampingnya. Pemuda itu mengulum permen stik di mulutnya.

“Kalian parkir di mana?” tanya Xeva pada Zahira karena tidak melihat tanda-tanda mobil pick up milik Yegor—nama pemuda yang tinggi menjulang itu.

“Enggak jauh dari sini,” jawab Zahira yang tidak memberikan jawaban. Xeva sudah terbiasa dengan cara berbicara Zahira.

Lantas mereka kembali ke dinding yang menjadi kanvas Owen malam itu. Tulisan grafiti yang terpampang di dinding tampak tajam dan mencolok. Pekerjaannya hampir selesai.

“Boleh coba ngga?” tanya Zahira sambil mengambil salah satu botol cat pilox. Ia sudah mengarahkan cat tersebut pada dinding dengan percaya diri berlebihan.

Owen langsung mengibaskan tangannya. “Jangan di mahakarya gue!”

Why though? Aku cuma mau mempertegas garis yang di sini.” Ia menunjuk ke salah satu huruf.

Owen hanya mengerang. Ia mengacak rambut buzz cutnya.

Terlanjur. Zahira sudah menyemprot warna itu ke salah satu huruf dan ternyata perbuatannya justru merusak hasil karya Owen karena ia tidak lihai membuat garis lurus.

Owen tampak murka. Tapi tidak banyak ucapan yang keluar dari mulutnya. “You ruin my art.” Ia hanya melangkah penuh ancaman mendekati Zahira, menatap tajam, dan memperbaiki tulisan grafitinya.

I just add more taste.” Zahira menyeringai sambil berniat mencoret dinding lagi.

“Argh, gue jadi harus mengulang lagi di bagian ini.”

It looks better with my touch.”

“Lo enggak ngerti seni.”

Hah?!

Sementara kedua anak itu bertengkar, Xeva dan Yegor duduk bersila di atas trotoar yang bersih dengan potato chips di antara mereka.

Yegor yang memperhatikan dua bocah yang hampir saling lempar kaleng cat pilox. Tanpa perlu mendengar apa yang didebatkan Owen dan Zahira, ia bisa mengerti masalahnya. Mereka berdua memang selalu seperti kucing dan anjing. Herannya mereka sangat sulit dipisahkan. 

Xeva sudah kebal dengan keributan dua anak itu. Jadi ia hanya membiarkan mereka bertengkar soal siapa yang punya jiwa seni dan tidak.

“Tumben kamu bisa keluar malam,” ucap Xeva pada Yegor menggunakan bisindo. Yegor adalah teman tulinya dan mereka teman masa kecil yang saling menyaksikan satu sama lain tumbuh. Xeva masih teringat tinggi badan mereka yang pernah sejajar sewaktu masih SD sampai tiba-tiba Yegor menyalip tingginya di SMP.

“Keluargaku keluar kota,” jawab Yegor verbal. Meskipun tuli kongenital, ia bisa berbicara dengan jelas layaknya orang dengar pada umumnya berkat terapi wicara yang dilakukannya sejak ia bisa mengingat. Ia sangat mahir membaca gerakan mulut seseorang sehingga orang-orang di sekitarnya seringkali lupa dia tuli.

“Oh ya? Kok kamu enggak diajak?” tanya Xeva lagi.

“Aku disuruh jaga rumah.” Yegor mengangkat bahu—setengah berbohong. 

“Biasanya kan kamu yang jadi sopir.” Xeva sudah sangat kenal dengan keluarga Yegor.

Tiba-tiba arah pandang Xeva tertuju pada sebuah objek yang melaju di jalan raya. Lampu rotator berwarna merah dan biru berpendar di atas kendaraan itu. Mobil patroli itu semakin mendekat. “Ada polisi!” serunya seraya bergegas membereskan makanan mereka ke dalam tote bag tanpa peduli isinya yang bertumpahan.

Yegor menoleh ke belakang dan melihat hal yang sama dengan yang dilihat Xeva. Mereka berdua bergegas membantu Owen memasukan kaleng-kaleng cat pilox ke dalam ransel.

“Belum kelar!” keluh Owen sementara tangannya masih bergerak menyelesaikan sentuhan terakhir di grafitinya. Perhatiannya terfokus pada karya di hadapannya.

“CEPAT!” bentak Zahira memarahi Owen dan merebut paksa cat pilox yang dipegang sepupunya.

“Mereka mendekat!” seru Xeva seraya memasukkan cat pilox terakhir ke dalam tas ransel Owen lantas mereka berlari menjauh dari dinding gedung terbengkalai itu. Keempatnya berlari di atas jalan raya

“Yegor, di mana mobil lo?!” tanya Owen dengan napas tersengal tanpa menoleh ke arah Yegor. Tentu saja Yegor tidak menanggapi. 

“Ikut aku!” seru Zahira berlari paling depan menuju ke sebuah gang karena dia yang pergi mencari makanan bersama Yegor beberapa menit yang lalu.

Keempatnya berlari di bawah cahaya kuning temaram lampu jalanan, sementara mobil patroli mendekati tempat mereka berada tadi. Mereka terus berlari di bawah bayangan pohon sambil sesekali menoleh ke belakang. Strada dua kabin milik Yegor terparkir di depan halaman rumah kosong yang gelap. Mereka terburu-buru masuk ke dalam mobil. Yegor dan Xeva duduk di jok depan, sementara Owen dan Zahira duduk di belakang sesuai tempat duduk mereka yang biasanya.

Xeva menatap keluar dan mendengar mobil patroli itu berhenti di lokasi Owen berbuat vandalisme karena suara sirinenya yang dekat. Para polisi itu turun dari kendaraan mereka. Ia memegang bahu Yegor dan memberi isyarat untuk tidak menstarter mobil. “Jangan sekarang,” bisiknya. 

Yegor mengangguk. Meskipun di bawah cahaya lampu jalan raya yang remang-remang, ia bisa membaca gerakan bibir Xeva. Tapi kemudian dia mendorong kepala Yegor ke bawah untuk menundukkan kepalanya karena Yegor tentu tidak mendengar suara langkah kaki polisi yang mendekat di luar.

“Ouch!” Kepala Yegor terbentur pendingin mobil. Ia mengusap keningnya. Kemudian ia melihat berkas cahaya senter memasuki mobil. Semoga mereka tidak menengok ke dalam, ucapnya dalam hati.

“Maaf,” bisik Xeva sambil mengatupkan tangan karena sama sekali tak berniat membuat kepala Yegor terbentur.

Mereka berempat diam menunduk hingga berkas cahaya senter itu lenyap. Kemudian, mereka baru menegakkan kepala setelah mobil patroli itu meninggalkan lokasi vandalisme karya Owen.

“Baru kali ini ada polisi sampai turun mengecek,” ucap Owen sambil meregangkan tangannya yang pegal setelah sejam penuh mengerjakan grafiti. Ia melepas masker dan topi hitam yang dikenakannya.

“Bukannya kamu pernah kepergok polisi sebelumnya?” Zahira menatap sepupunya yang selalu berbuat nekat. Mereka menjaga rahasia itu dari para orang tua mereka yang bersaudara. Hanya barisan sepupu yang mengetahui fakta soal Owen pelaku vandalisme di bangunan publik dan properti terbengkalai yang ditinggalkan pemiliknya. Ia memang tergabung dalam komunitas rahasia pelaku vandalisme. Kenakalan terparahnya adalah mencoret dinding taman kota.

“Yeah tapi enggak sampai dikejar kayak tadi,” jawab Owen tanpa beban. 

“Kita ke mana sekarang?” tanya Yegor seraya menstarter mobilnya.

“Tempat biasa,” jawab Zahira spontan.

Xeva meneruskan jawaban Zahira pada Yegor dan mobil pun melaju ke tempat biasa mereka menghabiskan waktu bersama—melarikan diri dari tugas, pekerjaan rumah, membicarakan rahasia, dan menonton kapal-kapal ferry bersandar di area lepas pantai. Lokasi "tempat biasa"  berada di pinggir pantai persis dan berhadapan dengan bangunan masjid terapung yang terkenal di kota kecil itu.

Ketika sampai di lokasi tujuan, mereka berempat keluar dari mobil dan menggelar tikar di atas area kargo terbuka yang ada di belakang kabin. Xeva membawa keluar tote bag berisi makanan ringan yang tumpah akibat dikemas terburu-buru saat mobil patroli mendekat. Tak lupa mereka menyalakan lampu emergency untuk sumber penerangan yang dipasang di atas kabin karena area tersebut jauh dari jangkauan lampu jalanan.

Tanpa bicara, mereka berempat setuju kejadian barusan menegangkan. Belum pernah mereka menjadi target pengejaran polisi. Itu pertama kalinya mereka melakukan hal nekat bersama. Apa jadinya kalau polisi memergoki mereka berbuat vandalisme tengah malam? Mereka hanya anak SMA kelas 12 yang beberapa bulan lagi menghadapi Ujian Nasional dan SBMPTN. Seharusnya kelas 12 jadi momen pencerahan karena lengah sedikit bisa jadi berpengaruh pada masa depan mereka.  

Salah satu dari mereka terlihat senewen.

Sorry,” ucap Owen yang duduk paling pinggir area kargo mobil pick up. Suaranya terdengar penuh penyesalan. “Gue hampir membuat kalian celaka. Tadi itu bahaya. Untung aja polisi enggak sampai menangkap kita. Kalian enggak perlu ikut gue bikin grafiti lagi.”

“Bukan salahmu, kita juga yang mau ikut kamu coret-coret dinding,” balas Xeva yang seperti biasa duduk di sisi Yegor.

“Tadi kamu enggak nulis nama kan?” tanya Zahira dengan raut curiga pada sepupu yang tanggal lahirnya sama dengannya.

“Enggak sempat.”

“Haa? Memang kamu biasa nulis nama?”

“Cuma nulis inisial R.” R adalah inisial nama belakang Owen. Ravenio. “Kalian mau maafin gue kan?” Matanya mengerling pada laut di belakang mereka—pertanda ia sangat canggung mengatakan itu. Meskipun sudah menetap di kota itu selama tiga tahun, Owen masih tidak bisa menghilangkan logat Jakartanya.

“Yaaa, kita maafin selama kamu traktir makan siang kita di sekolah selama seminggu ke depan.” Xeva terkekeh yang disambut dukungan dari Zahira dan Yegor.

“Oh iya, Yegor. Terima kasih—” Owen berterima kasih dalam bisindo—ujung tangan kanan mendekat ke dagu lalu bergerak menjauh dari wajahnya. Kemampuan berbahasa isyaratnya masih terbatas untuk kata-kata sederhana jadi ia melanjutkan dengan berkata, “Kalau enggak ada mobil lo, mungkin kita udah ketangkep polisi.” Di antara mereka berempat, memang hanya Yegor yang bisa mengendarai mobil.

“Bukan masalah. Yang tadi lumayan seru kok,” balas Yegor secara verbal dan bisindo. Tanpa mereka menggunakan bahasa isyarat, Yegor sudah sangat terbiasa membaca gerakan bibir.

“Seruuu kamu bilang?! Aku hampir kesandung batu pas lari! Lagian kenapa parkir mobilnya jauh sih?!” Kedua manik mata Xeva tampak berapi-api di bawah sinar rembulan. Rambut birunya tertiup angin.

“Biar aman dan enggak kelihatan dari jalan raya,” jawab Yegor santai. Tadi ia memang memarkirkan mobil agak jauh dari lokasi bangunan terbengkalai.

“Tadi seru kayak di film-film.” Zahira nyengir lebar. “Kapan coret-coret dinding lagi, Wen?”

Owen balas menyeringai penuh rencana. “Yakin mau ikut lagi?”

“Jangan ngadi-ngadi. Kalian mau kejadian kayak tadi?” Xeva berusaha menyadarkan partner in crime yang lupa diri itu.

“Aku enggak yakin bisa ikut lagi. Ada jam malam di rumah,” jelas Yegor sambil duduk bersila dan bertopang dagu. Ia menatap teman-temannya yang selalu ribut. Meskipun tidak bisa mendengar keributan mereka, Yegor selalu menikmati momen itu dan membaca perdebatan mereka yang tidak bisa didengarnya.

“Cuma malam ini enggak ada jam malam?” tanya Zahira penasaran. Mereka sebenarnya tahu alasan Yegor memiliki jam malam. Yegor tinggal di rumah keluarga besarnya yang terdiri dari nenek, dua tante, mamanya, dan empat adik perempuannya. Dia satu-satunya laki-laki di rumah itu.

“Keluargaku lagi liburan keluar kota,” jelas Yegor singkat.

I see,” kata Zahira sambil melirik jam tangannya yang sudah menunjukkan pukul 00.15 dini hari.

“Pantes bisa keluar lewat tengah malam,” kata Owen sambil merogoh saku lantas mengeluarkan sebungkus sampoerna dan pemantiknya. Tetapi, Zahira sudah merebut bungkus itu lebih dahulu sebelum Owen sempat mengambil sebatang rokok.

Zahira terlihat sangat berang. “Mama kamu lagi sakit batuk dan kamu malah merokok?!” Ia teringat dua hari yang lalu melihat Tante Laras yang batuk-batuk saat berkunjung ke rumah. Tante Laras adalah adik ayahnya sekaligus mamanya Owen.

“Merokoknya kan di luar!” balas Owen berusaha menggapai kembali sumber nikotinnya dari tangan Zahira yang terangkat tinggi.

“Asapnya bisa nempel di baju.”

“Sekali ini aja. Gue udah enggak merokok seminggu.”

“ENGGAK!” Lantas Zahira melompat turun dari bak pick up dan bergegas ke tong sampah hijau terdekat yang ada di pinggir jalan.

Owen mengejar sepupunya. “Zaah, jangan dibuang! Plastiknya masih belum terbuka!”

Xeva membiarkan kedua anak itu saling berkejaran layaknya anak kecil, lalu menatap ke arah lepas pantai tempat kapal-kapal ferry sedang bersandar. Dari kejauhan juga tampak para nelayan yang sedang menangkap ikan untuk dijual di pelelangan keesokan paginya.

Bayang rembulan terpantul di atas permukaan laut yang hitam. Dagu gadis itu menempel pada pinggir bak kargo. Ia menikmati alunan lembut ombak yang menghempas pembatas beton yang membatasi jalan dan laut.

Sementara itu Yegor menyenderkan punggungnya pada pinggiran bak mobil pick upnya. Ia menatap langit tanpa awan yang bertabur bintang. Ia mengenali banyak rasi bintang dan favoritnya adalah rasi bintoeng pajekko dalam bahasa Bugis. Nama lainnya adalah rasi bintang orion. Rasi yang menandakan arah Barat.

Papa yang mengajarkannya cara membaca rasi bintang dan memaknai setiap gugus bintang di cakrawala. Ia merindukan Papa yang sudah bertahun-tahun berlayar di antah berantah. Does my existence ever pass in your mind, Dad?

Dalam hening, Xeva menoleh pada Yegor. Ia memandang rambut pirang Yegor dan irisnya yang berwarna hijau. Laki-laki itu sudah dikenalnya sejak ia mulai menginjak sekolah dasar. Mereka berbagi masa lalu dan sudah saling mengenal terlalu dalam.

“Malam ini apakah akan jadi abadi?” bisiknya.

Yegor yang merasa ditatap dan dibicarakan sesuatu mengerling ke sampingnya. “Apa?” tanya Yegor dengan suaranya yang dalam. Kenihilan satu indra bukan berarti ia kesulitan menyadari keberadaan sekelilingnya, justru keempat indranya yang lain menjadi sangat tajam terutama penglihatannya.

Xeva menggelengkan kepalanya.

“Kamu habis bilang sesuatu?” tanya Yegor mendekatkan kepalanya pada wajah Xeva yang membuat Xeva spontan mundur hingga ia bisa menghirup aroma mint dan karamel dari bibir Yegor. Mata hijau yang teduh itu mengerjap penasaran. Helai-helai rambut pirangnya jatuh di keningnya. Yegor tampak berpendar seperti bulan perak yang bersinar malam itu.

Pipi Xeva tampak bersemu. Kedua netranya mencari objek lain yang bisa mengalihkan perhatiannya. Permen yupi. Biskuit genji. Chitato. Astor. Ia mengabsen makanan ringan yang dibeli. “Aku diam dari tadi!” serunya.

Yegor menyeringai. “Aku memang tuli tapi bukan berarti aku tidak bisa melihat kamu bilang sesuatu.”

Pada akhirnya Xeva menghela napas. Dia kalah. “Kamu bakal cringe kalau dengar aku kepikiran buat puisi dari kejadian malam ini.”

Yegor menggelengkan kepalanya. Ia tidak pernah menganggap ide apapun dari Xeva sebagai sesuatu yang ganjil. “Aku akan dengar.”

“Sebentar, aku masih memikirkannya.” Xeva mengetukan jari telunjuk pada dagunya. Mata hitamnya yang selalu berbinar melihat ke taburan bintang di atasnya. Taburan bintang itu terefleksi di matanya. Terkadang ia suka menulis puisi meskipun tidak mahir. Seperti biasa ia membawa buku catatan kecil dan pulpen mini di saku.

Jari tangannya yang mungil sibuk menuliskan bisikan suara di benaknya yang menyeruak tumpah.

Sambil menahan tawa karena merasa idenya menggelikan, ia menatap Yegor yang mengamatinya sedari tadi. “Janji jangan menganggapku aneh!”

“Yaaa, aku bakal memasang wajah tanpa ekspresi.” Yegor ikut menahan senyum.

Xeva menghela napas kemudian kalimatnya mengalir di udara sementara Yegor membaca setiap gerak bibir Xeva agar ia mengerti.


Hamparan cakrawala semakin redup.
Rembulan dan bintang saling berselaras.
Samudra mereguk binar perak.
Senyap mengalun lirih.
Malam ini apakah akan jadi abadi?"


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Tentu. Aku akan mengingat malam ini, tapi apakah kamu akan mengenangnya juga?


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To be continued

  

About their profiles

Full name: Xevara Ellena Stefany
Nickname: Xeva
D. O. B.: 3 April 2001
Birth Place: Makassar
Blood Type: B+
Pronoun: she/her
Height: 172 cm

Full name: Yegor Dionysius Tjakra
Nickname: Yegor
D. O. B.: 29 Juli 2000
Birth Place: Novosibirsk (he is half Indo/half Russian)
Blood Type: AB-
Pronoun: he/him
Height: 189 cm

Full name: Zahira S. L. Ghassan
Nickname: Zahira
D. O. B.: 13 November 2000
Birth Place: Jayapura
Blood Type: O+
Pronoun: she/her
Height: 163 cm

Full name: Owen Ravenio
Nickname: Owen
D. O. B.: 13 November 2000
Birth Place: Balikpapan
Blood Type: B+
Pronoun: he/him
Height: 180 cm